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Monday, June 14, 2010

i'm feeling super proud of myself now.
i made it up mt k!
actually...... maybe i will go back one day?
for now, i need a break from treks, my body is screaming for me to stop and i better heed it before anything permanent happens..

mt kinabalu..... hmmm.
it was a challenge.
when the altitude hit me, i just wanted to sit down and not move.
when i reach the summit, i was honestly gna cry. as in really.
there were tears in my eyes. and yihui told me i shld cry if i wanted to hahah..
but i didn't la. didnt wanna embarrass myself..
the walk was soooo long.
it felt like it was never gna end?

i'm just glad i made it.
for now, i don't have much thoughts in my head.. im just so exhausted.
we trekked for almost 20 hours in 2 days. which is amazing.

ok, altho they don't read this.
but yihui shawna soon kiat sq, thank you :D
you guys really made it possible for me to reach the summit, cldn't have done it alone ever. altho i had no energy to be happy or excited when i reached the peak, i really am happy. i hope they know that.
go team mt k!!

this feels so surreal....... arghhh.
less than 2 days ago, at 6am (13/06/1020) , i was at the highest peak in south east asia. the highest a human could possibly go, and all of what is familiar to me was below me. friends were going on with their lives, family was peacefully in bed, for everyone else it was a normal day. but i was up there, 4095 metres above all of these.
and...
now i'm back home on my bed. i kinda wish i was back there?
oh well.

have i become a better person? have i grown stronger?
i've come back with more questions than when i left..
one thing i know is, the mind is really stronger than the body.
i always thought i can't even run 5km..
but, i've climbed 8.5km vertically with abt 8-9 kg of load, unbeknown to myself..
i know its different, but hmmmmmmm... ok.
hahahaha i dunno what im saying also la. but while i was passing all the signs that tells us how far we've walked, this thought came upon me.
and i realised, we really are stronger than we think.

11:17 PM